Insulting 1st impressions

Current mood: thoughtful


I have decreed that any man who asks me if I have a man upon our first meeting has insulted me and is not worthy of any more of my time.
I don't have a wedding ring. That means I am not married.
A man at a bar approached me and persisted to open with
" Do you have a man?"
"Why?"
"Because I wouldn't want to be disrespectful."
"Oh, what would you say to me that would be disrespectful if I had a man?"
"I don't know"
"But the plan was to disrespect me if I wasn't out without a protector?"
"Not at all."
"You kinda already have."
The way I feel about it is: My sex life and deep seeded emotions are none of your business. Especially if you don't know my name. Or where I'm from or if I have siblings or where I work or my belief in God.
You don't know ANYTHING about me, but you wanna know who I'm having sex with. Really? That's what you are interested in. Find a whore for that. NEXT!
I have already explained my belief in the juvenile nature of calling one your boyfriend or girlfriend outside of school. That denotation is for children to explain their feelings for one another to one another.
I, being a grown woman, either have a Husband or a person I am close with and like a lot. Not my man. Not a boyfriend.
If a woman is on the market. Then it is up to her to tell you this. If she wants you to know she has a husband. That's for her to say. It's none of anyone's business, unless she chooses to make it someone's business.
Just a heads up for the pimps and players......Get a better line.
Just a heads up for the single and non single women who get approached......make them feel bad about their disrespect....teach them....make them think about it....save other girls from the insult of that awful ice breaker, "You got a man?"

Sincerity vs Disappointed

Current mood:
awake
Category:
Life



Every man that I have ever encountered in my life (outside of my family) has diappointed me in some shape form or fashion. If you are a man and our paths have crossed, then yes, I'm talking about you. I completley understand that my standard operating proceedure is above and beyond mosts comprehension, to comprehend my idealism is a pre-requiset, but once you get past that, comprehending my eternity, is an absolute must.
I have come to believe in my 25 yrs that most people you encounter are insincere and to believe that they are isn't from a word and it isn't a feeling. It is in action and in doing. And when I play back the actions and the motivations for those actions or lack there of, I can only conclude that your words are insincere and your actions are what you want to manifest.
The creator rests in every word and every action. I aim to be sincere in my interactions, which really dosen't work when you are intereacting with insincerity. I don't want to have to be scared to relate to people, but I also cannot be wasting time in interactions that are dictated by someone else's purpose for my time and my life. My brother was telling me that there are a million people out there that want to give you a purpose if you don't define what it is for yourself.
Well to those who have told me love instead of showing me love, I can finally give thanks, I have been beaten into submission. My purpose is not to be friends with any men or dare to call one my own. I can only claim things that are true and divine and the movement that is made in the most positive direction possible. NONE OF THE MEN THAT I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS IN MY WHOLE LIFE OTHER THAN MY FAMILY MEMBERS HAVE BEEN IN A POSITIVE DIRECTION.
the right direction isn't money either. I think it's influence. I can be influential while being impartial to anything, but my purpose. I am influential. And I am a positive forcefull influence with my being and my decisions and my imprint and attention. I was thinking about imprints the other day, cause I'm the kind a girl who touches things, all the boxes of cerial in the grocery store or tracing the lines of shelves or touching the wall or rubbing clothes as I pass by in the store, just to see how it feels, just cause I can, but I never thought about the fact that I'm leaving some kind of imprint, however so slightly, on everything I touch. So I'm gonna treat you people like the clothes or the fountains or the grass.....if I am allowed to touch, in an appropriate most positive way, then I will and keep it moving on the purpose, but should I encounter something sticky or messy or dirty I'll have to wash my hands and keep it trucking.
But I wanted to point it out, cause my girlfriends know that yall are such a disappointment, but such an eye opening inspiration to move in a completley different direction. I guess that's why I don't have kids, cause it would have been with one of the men I had encountered and we already know Every man that I have ever encountered in my life (outside of my family) has diappointed me in some shape form or fashion.
And I would think it was me....if my actions weren't always so sincere and if my family and girlfriends disowned me, but they not only own me, but pride themselves on my development based off of their encouragment and sincere deveotion to the cause that is me. I hate to think I'm a celibate lesbian...as I suspect of Oprah. I definitly get my physical chemistry with men , but every other part of my development is nurtured by the women in my life. The people who care whether I live or die. The ones who don't have to say they love me, but they do anyway, but their actions are what makes me see eternity with them by my side.......our interactions are sincere which is more than I can say for every man that I have ever come across ( outside of my family)
And I wish someone would fed me some bull justification. If I know you and your a man, trust, I was disappointed.

Monday night tv

Age of Love

• He picked the 25yr old instead of the 40 yr old. I think it's cause he wants kids.

Kimora (Life in the fab lane)

• How many time or different ways did she say, "I am a mother, a model, a Mogul and an entrepreneur?" she has billboards and will never do carpool, but she wants you to look at her like she is a normal person.


• Jeans~ clothing~ shoes~ jewelry~ sunglasses~fragrances~ kids companies~ and their fashion shows.


• " Cars come and go, money comes and goes, husbands come and go, but the children don't go."


• Fabulocity........she wants a word in the Webster's. Drinking game....how many times does she try to coin the term per episode.....


• I like the family and the children all wrapped up in the work place.


• She looked beautiful doing her yoga. I think it should be incorporated into the work place. I really like her inclusion of it into the office. I liked them showing the heavy guy not being heavy, but able to do the yoga like everyone else


• She wouldn't let them chump her on the "drop the barbie" in the name of her barbie. She caught them and then intelligently explained why she wants "barbie" on her doll. She may be colored, but she ain't no sidekick!

Making the Band 4

• The first group sucked. No unity. Like a new edition Nsynce 112 but no unity.


• The second group got the crowd hype....they were more like new edition '07. Unity in energy and movements and costumes


• He tries to embarrass them.


• And then he left us hanging on purpose